Chasing Feelings

December 20, 2921

You’re chasing a feeling that will never be.

In our heads we have e a visions - a family coming together in perfect harmony, or a wedding day full of cheer and good food, but we’re all just chasing a feeling.

To heal this need to feel the elation, to feel surrounded by love, is to burst a huge ballon. To let the pressure on your chest & weight of anticipation pop and …POOF. It’s gone. Never to be expressed.

And I’m the letting go of a wanted feeling, there is the greatest peace for what we all pine for, we already have.

A family apart has no less love. I don’t love my niece less because she’s not here. And I won’t love her more if she is here. The feeling turns into a deep appreciation for others for the show up. It relaxes into accepting that the vision feeling is never quite fulfilled, and really all that ever matters is the is-ness of just another day - no more or less love when we are together or apart. That’s the power.